Dear
Gurudev,
I am so grateful & lucky to be on
this path with you as my master, my love, my everything.
I am grateful for the opportunities to
teach and volunteer. I am grateful for Satsang and the time I had with
you in India this and last year.
After returning from India in March, I
became overcome with desire & lust. As a Brahmacharya, I could
not resist the thoughts of sex with women. I realized that becoming a
Brahmacharya now was not a happening, but rather a struggle. Within a
month of returning, I ended up letting my energy go. I decided that I needed a
woman / girlfriend. I shaved my beard & started dating someone within a week.
I am not in love with this woman &
would simply prefer to be completely free of this desire, but the only time I
feel completely free of desire is when I am with you in the Bangalore Ashram.
I want to be close to you and be of
service in India. I recently became an Overseas Citizen of India (OCI)
and want to be at the Bangalore Ashram with you.
I am willing to do seva at the ashram
/ if you prefer, settle in Bangalore & work in the city. I
would be glad to do whatever you say & value your direction more than
anything in this life.
I completely surrender to you and
realize that I love you more than anything in this world.
Gurudev, I hope to be physically close
to you, but will listen to whatever direction you give me.
I feel so lucky to be on this path and
wish for others to realize your grace.
Please give me direction so that I can
be liberated from these small minded cravings & aversions.
Gurudev, more than anything, I wish for
my body to be your humble abode. I wish for you to use me be.
I have completed basic Hindi and am now
about to start intermediate conversational Hindi.
May this sense of I give and give and
give & realize love blossoming in this field of consciousness.
Love & Jai Guru Dev,
Ritesh Sheth
Austin, TX
April 4th 2014
Guru Poornima Day 07-12-14
Dear Gurudev,
I am so grateful for this past year of
growth & love blossoming. I am so happy to have given Marma
treatments, teach the Happiness Program three & 1/4 times & teach Sri
Sri Yoga. I am so grateful to have spent three months with you in India
over the past year. I am also so grateful for getting accepted into the
Vedic Wisdom course & Sri Sri Yoga TTC. I can't believe I've not only
been accepted into Sri Sri University, but also have your blessings to move to
India.
I feel like in the past year my vasanas
have reduced & my happiness has increased. I still have times of
negative thoughts & emotions, but surrender them to pitta imbalance /
surrender them to the river of consciousness.
I also feel like in the past year I
completely surrendered to you. I am finally ready to take whatever
direction you give me. I am completely at your service.
I surrender any thoughts of lust, anger,
greed &/ violence to you completely. I have no idea why any thoughts
of negativity arise, but know you'll steer me in the right direction.
Please know that I love you more than
anything in this world & have complete faith that you'll take care of me.
I feel spoiled by you & believe I am on the royal path, a Raja Yogi.
In so much gratitude & love,
Ritesh
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