The Night I wrote off Mona...

So I spent the day with Mona and finally decided that our 4th day didn't really sit too well. I can't put my finger on it, but I realized, as did my sister and mother, that Mona, simply wasn't the one. Not sure why, but I have a feeling that she's attracted to powerful men who have their shit together. I like to think of myself as simply a happy-go-lucky guy who happen to find a path to financial independence close to home. I'm definitely not a powerful doctor / lawyer that she would probably look up to...I'm the humble guju that succeeded in buying low and selling high with a very humble outlook on life...I simply want to be able to provide a good life for my family and extended family. I miss the emotional connection I had with AD. I miss her deeply, but realize that I had to move on. I am looking forward to spending some time with AI next week and hearing about her 8 areas in life...she and I seem to share a very similar spiritual depth that goes at least six layers deep. With loving kindness, GSW

Random Thoughts from LA

I have about 30 minutes until I have to head for boarding on my way home sweet home to Austin. I get home pretty late at 10:30pm or so and am looking forward to seeing Mona tomorrow at around noon. Odd that at the age of 34, I'm finally convinced that man does need a woman to exist in harmony. Man needs love in his life to successfully exist in society. I used to wonder at the young age of 22 until 25 or so why people around the world were so much alike in that a man and woman were married with children. This world wide common denominator of the family unit intrigued me because I expected to find a civilization / culture that did not subscribe to what I thought was the "American suburbian" way of life. Interestingly though, I noted in my second year in college that cultures did differ regarding their acceptance in the nuclear family vs. the extended family. Cultures like the US / Western Industrialized countries often existed in nuclear families vs. extended families chiefly due to their required mobility. I say required because to me, having your extended family close by is a luxury. I have my parents w/in a 3 hour drive and my sister w/in a 15 minute drive. I have built a very close relationship with most of my family in Texas. I guess I could take the extra step to build a closer extended family relationship with my cousins and my uncles and aunties.

So on to another thought around spirituality. I haven't discussed this yet, but I believe that we all have a battle in our minds. We are always fighting good vs. evil or what we believe is evil / wrong in our lives. I have met with a few therapists / psychologists that believe that this "war in our minds" could potentially be our battle with anger, fear, or frustration. I would argue that love conquers all. Whether this loves exists in spiritual terms / emotional terms, I would say that romantic love / godly love conquers these 3 battles we exist with.

I am looking forward to researching Satya Sai Baba (sp?) and his philosophies. I think that my inferiority / racial fears are an escape / "effect" based on an anxiety / fear of career / financial independence. I wonder if I might be better off cashing out with a laid back gig where I can focus on doing what I love. I love real estate and teaching / lecturing. I would love to teach people about money and life.

Regarding money, I would teach leverage, cash flow, and equity principles around real estate / business with income from a career.

Regarding careers, I would teach pricing / business / marketing / strategy or the combination of all mentioned.

Regarding spirituality, I would focus on finding the lowest common demonator and bridging the links among The Dalai Lama, Gandhi, MLK, The Art of Living, Christianity, Islam, Hinduism, and any other world religions that come to mind. Ultimately, I believe that the moral right rules. Good over evil, helping the poor and impoverished through literacy, education, food, and safety needs.

I also believe that the new prestige / luxury in life is not material, but is now morality and good for society. As the world becomes smaller and we live with increased stress, anxiety, and depression, how can we offset these natural occurances in an industrialized world with seva / community service and knowlege sharing.

With loving kindness and respect for all leaders and humble providers alike,

A Gemini in Search of a Wife (GSW).

Exhausted at the airport in Penang and looking forward to home sweet home...

Can't wait...heading home sweet home today from Penang, MY to Austin, TX. I'll write more from Hong Kong layover, but I really have a lot to look forward to this weekend with Mona DC's visit. She's so pretty, but I can't seem to connect with her on a spiritual / emotional level. We had one great night at The Ritz in DC, but otherwise, it's been really really difficult. Guess we'll play it by ear and see how it goes. On the other hand, I've really enjoyed hanging out with Anita, but just not sure...guess I'll give both women a chance.

Must go...

Hopefully this will be come a great way to write in my diary away from home...always enjoy being able to pour my thoughts out and clear my head...better catch my next flight...stuck in Hong Kong and kinda feeling like ass...wouldn't mind just being home sweet home right now, but being out and about is good for me. Orite, will write more and discuss my weekend with Mona tonight / tomorrow. Gemini In Search (Gis)