Monday, March 29, 2010

The first full day in Bangalore, India

So today we went to the office and had a relatively slow day. My colleague, a good friend and wonderful woman, ended up with a rash / allergy reaction to the wine she had on her flight over. I think the wine combined with the foreign food and Bangalore weather probably hit her. We'll call her SLH. She and I worked together in Global and she came from a particularly hard place being a minority female and lesbian. She's happily settled with a life partner and two children she is raising. I think that sense of connectedness and balance is wonderful. I feel guilty when I offend her. We had a good discussion today about race relations and sexual orientation in society. The side bar conversation was more interesting than our work on-site!

I am having a little trouble with all of the road dust and noise pollution. Everyone and their dog honks their horn and it is sooo irritating. I ended up changing rooms and getting a much quieter room on the other side of the hotel. The Oberoi Bangalore Hotel is NICE. I love how in Asia, many of the luxury hotels I've staid in have great wood accents and select wood ceilings and marble baths. A very nice touch.

I traded emails with Amy today, which was nice, though the fact that she returned my voice mail with an email tells me that she wants her space for these two weeks. I'll give it to her and simply hope that she comes around by the end of April. At that point, if she's not ready for a stonger emotional connection and affectionate relationship, I guess I will re-evaluate...she may either not be ready / she may not feel comfortable with me. I don't want to lose her. I think the world of her and hope that we're connected emotionally, spiritually, and physically.

In Loving Kindness,

RMS

Sunday, March 21, 2010

by Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet (1883-1931)

by Kahlil Gibran, The Prophet (1883-1931)
Also titled: You Were Born Together

You were born together, and together you shall be forevermore.

You shall be together when white wings of death scatter your days.

Aye, you shall be together even in the silent memory of God.

But let there be spaces in your togetherness,

And let the winds of the heavens dance between you.

Love one another but make not a bond of love:

Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.

Fill each other's cup but drink not from one cup.

Give one another of your bread but eat not from the same loaf.

Sing and dance together and be joyous, but let each one of you be alone,

Even as the strings of a lute are alone though they quiver with the same music.

Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.

For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts.

And stand together, yet not too near together:

For the pillars of the temple stand apart,

And the oak tree and the cypress grow not in each other's shadow.

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Met Someone...with a very common goal...

I met someone a few weeks ago that I would consider a gift from god. The first time I met her, I thought she was taken...I thought she was gorgeous, and her boyfriend definitely had me beat...he has hair ;-) We had an opportunity to get a picture and she put her hand on my shoulder...I felt a connection that makes you feel simply put, connected. She mentioned dinner and I gladly said I would get in touch with her. The next week we were out for dinner at Kismet Cafe near 24th & Guadalupe. I can't tell you how wonderful our first meeting was...I felt the chemistry both physically and intellectually. We discussed meditation, yoga, and spirituality. I still wasn't quite sure if she was single, but I knew I better try and take it to at least first base the next time we went out...the next time we went out, at the end of the night, she kissed my cheek, and I put my arm around her and went in for the kill...was simply put, wonderful...will never forget our first kiss in my Prius in front of the Monarch :-) So here I am...about a month later, not even, and we've learned a lot about each other. I can't begin to write about how much she's been through and where she's at now. She just broke up with her x boyfriend a few weeks ago and I know she's also dealing with something else too that I will not mention here...and so am I. Regardless, over our dinner last night at Ronnie's, I realized why our connection may have not been a match made in heavan. Both she and I have had a rough time over the past six months and I think we're both coming around. I leave for India in less than a week and will hopefully get a chance to see if I really miss her. We seem to have the exact same goals coming into this relationship. Will be interesting to see if w/in six months, we're still on the same page. I hope so...she's wonderful. Will keep you posted. In loving kindness, RMS