I walked and walked through the fog and realized that I had to stop and take a picture of what lay in front of me and what lay behind me. Here is what lay ahead of me:
I then stopped, took a look in front of me and then turned around and wondered what lay behind me:
At this point, I realized that I was on the path...this is such a beautiful path, where we no longer dwell on the past or worry about the future, but rather simply enjoy the present moment...I am only able to see a little bit in front of me, but the view is so beautiful...life is so beautiful.
I realized that I simply have to be present to appreciate the beauty right in front of me. As is said in Peaceful Warrior, there is so much going on right now...most of the time, we simply miss it...we're either stuck in the past or worrying about the future. We may not even dwell or worry, but sometimes glorify the past or dream about the future with anticipation or excitement, all the while simply missing the moment...the present!
As I stood there this morning, I realized that we have a choice to see this world as Heaven or Hell. These worlds, if you will, are all creations of the mind, and we can choose Heaven. I believe I read something similar in Swami Rama's book, Walking with the Himalayan Masters.
As I spend more and more time in this program, I am beginning to let go of so much...I am letting go of the need for structure in my life, the desire for intellectual knowledge, the desire to achieve. I desire now to simply be present and move with contentment.
These paths that I saw this morning also reminded me that we simply don't need to clearly see what lies ahead, but rather just move with faith / Shraddha that what lays ahead is beautiful, is good for us; that what I may choose to compare is the present moment to the past and ask, has life improved...do I move with Santosha / Samadhana. Santosha meaning contentment, and Samadhana meaning moving with ease...being at ease.
May we all spend time just being or in wonder, not quite knowing what lies ahead / remembering what was in the past. May we simply be happy and equanimous with this moment.
The paths this morning seemed so romantic. The walk felt like a romance of sorts. This divine romance reminded me that I was not walking alone, but rather was being carried by him. Though I felt like I was walking, I realized I was being carried in the palm of my divine master, Gurudev. I cannot put into words how much love emanates from him when I realize that he's not a person, but rather the air I breathe, the water I drink, the ground I walk on, and the fire I witness in my Homa. He is love...I am love. We are love...we are that. I am so grateful for the reminder that he is why I am here...why I am blossoming in love. I could not imagine this life in any other way. As a recent video by Alan Watts communicated, we are living our dream. This is my dream...and it's becoming a beautiful dream come true. I feel like the luckiest.
May we see the path in front of us and behind us with a little mystery, romance, and simply abide in the moment.
With love. Jai Guru Dev, An Aspiring Yogi
